dont mind my ranting

i know i' supposed to be happy and hua
chi-ing and stuff
but i'm NOT!
i dont know why
i cant even sleep yst cos was thinking of wad music boy said
i wanted to ask him if its the same for him
wad is this feeling that i feel?
its abcdefg complicated and confusing and idk wad
there goes my muggng time and sleeping time
cant concentrate :( and its eating me alive
i know things will never be the same again
but i never feel so desperate for you
like i know its some kind of cycle tad repeats
meetup, dont see eachother for 12345months,leonie is emo, decides to forget him, see him somewhere, meetups and repeat cycle.
zomg.either i'm going mad, or i'm going lunatic.wadever
all in all.i promise to trust you even more.
i dont care wad is it that you're not telling me
but it doesnt matter.
i never doubted your love,
instead all these whiles,
i question mine.

i need another meetup like really soon before i go bang wall.i think

just came back from pw meeting at pacific plaza.
she treated us drinks.so we each got ice lemon tea and she got greentea smootie.
muahaha.bet its the first group she treat :D
anyw.sorted out loads of stuffs
and found ourselves with more stuffs to chiong
tried in vain to study in the mrt
i really know why i'm feeling freaking emo after meetups yst
cos the last time we metup, it was really the last time
until yst.which is almost 3/4 year apart
i tried to cling on every memory i have
but i ended up losing it.
i dunno how to go through this alone
but yeah.you promised to be with me.
so i hope it'll true
i dont know how many 4years we have to spare
but i know i do miss you a lot
its weird having this kind of feeling i guess
those feelings.every moment is magic
and i have to constantly tell myself:
a) i'm not dreaming
b) i really did went to his house and meetup with him yst
c) it is like 3 plus more days to seeing him again
d) all of the above
i wonder if i even drove you mad before?mmm

张韶涵-真的
我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说
却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰